My mom looks like me, except with short hair and laugh lines. 我母亲和我长得很像，除了短短的头发和笑纹 laugh lines
I felt a spasm of panic as I stared at her wide,
当我注视着她大大的，孩童般的双眼时，我感到一阵突如其来的痉挛 spasm of panic 痉挛,抽搐 恐慌, wide eyes 大眼睛
How could I leave my loving, erratic, harebrained mother to fend for herself? erratic 古怪的 飘忽不定的, harebrained 没有脑子的
but still.... 但是....
hat it sounded almost convincing now 以至于它现在听起来很有说服力。
I could see the sacrifice in her eyes behind the promise 我能从她的双眼里看出她会为此作出的牺牲

"Bella," my mom said to me — the last of a thousand times — before I got on the plane. "You don't have to do this." My mom looks like me, except with short

hair and laugh lines. I felt a spasm of panic as I stared at her wide, childlike eyes. How could I leave my loving, erratic, harebrained mother to fend for

herself? Of course she had Phil now, so the bills would probably get paid, there would be food in the refrigerator, gas in her car, and someone to call when

she got lost, but still…"I want to go," I lied. I'd always been a bad liar, but I'd been saying this lie so frequently lately that it sounded almost

convincing now. "Tell Charlie I said hi.""I will.""I'll see you soon," she insisted. "You can come home whenever you want —I'll come right back as soon as

you need me."But I could see the sacrifice in her eyes behind the promise."Don't worry about me," I urged. "It'll be great. I love you, Mom."She hugged me

tightly for a minute, and then I got on the plane, and she was gone.It's a four-hour flight from Phoenix to Seattle, another hour in a small plane up to Port

Angeles, and then an hour drive back down to Forks.Flying doesn't bother me; the hour in the car with Charlie, though, I wasa little worried about.